At every second of the day, there are always so many things running around my mind and brains. I am someone you can describe as analytical. I see deep into situations around me and ponder on them. In the process, sometimes, I come up with poems, write-ups and so on, and at times, I come up with a headache.
I will be sharing some of the outcomes of my pondering sessions. This one came out of pondering on my life plans for the future, my expectations, anxiety and how God would love me to handle situations like this.
I titled it Take me to Trust and it goes thus:
I fluster, shiver, and puzzle
Not sure of what to do
Not sure of where to go
Too many information to process and choose from
Too many advices from well and ill-meaning friends and family
I ask myself, what step should I take
Where will it lead me to?
How should I start?
I wonder if I will be happy or sad
Content or discontent, successful or unsuccessful
I guess there are too many options available
Each bidding, 'come to me'
I wish I can see what lies ahead each of the choices
That it may advise my decision
I look at the people around me
Not sure who to turn to
Who to believe or rely on
Not sure of who they are
Be they sycophants, opportunists, fraudsters or angels
I know not
I looked around for help
Looked north, found none appealing
Looked south, saw none rewarding
Looked east, discovered it wasn't worth looking
Looked west and completely lost hope
I came to a LOST state
Not knowing which way to go or who to turn to
I wandered around a spot
Rivelling in my lost world
While I remained at my lost spot
A word came filtering to my mind
Like a cleansing vapour
Reaching down to my innermost ache
The words remain clear till this day,
“Trust in the Lord with all your heart
And lean not on your own understanding
In all your ways acknowledge him
And He will direct your path”
I absorbed all the words and realised
I can always trust God
To always lead me on the right way
Sensing a release, I said within my soul
Take me to Trust
That I may believe and never question
Any path you take me through
Any turning you lead me to
And any pause you make me experience
Knowing that I am on the path
To a most rewarding and fulfilling life.
Lord I pray, Take me to Trust.